* The Waiting Room series*

This series unearths God's hidden treasures amidst uncertainty.

Spiritual Seasons - Part 2

Have you ever had someone ask simple questions like, “What’s happening in your life” or “How are you”? Yet, you felt as though they asked, “What’s the square root of …”. In difficult spiritual seasons, we can find ourselves tongue-tied when responding to those questions. Amid a process, we can feel stuck, bogged down, and everything is as clear as mud. Sometimes it's difficult to recognize our spiritual seasons until they're over. Only then can we see how God took the fragmented pieces of the puzzle and created something magnificent.

Many times, we think our experiences are unique. But, when shared, we find others relate to and benefit from our openness. The following words are my best attempt to convey a long, complex season, where God’s interactions changed me forever. I pray it sparks hope and helps you connect with your Heavenly Father.

During an uncomfortable and unsettling year of transition, God asked me to strip away the familiar. He urged me to reassess every relationship, including ours. He encouraged me to limit human interactions and outside influences, secluding with him instead. Also, he prompted me to examine my beliefs, scrutinizing their origin and testing them against Scripture. Some days, I felt lost, overwhelmed and exhausted. But when I pressed into the process, he brought amazing clarity and truth. Each step of the way, he was teaching me how to trust and rely on him to unprecedented levels. I did the best I could to embrace the hourly, daily, and weekly challenges, month after month.

Then I awoke one morning sensing something was different. God’s presence was powerful, and I knew I was about to enter a very intimate time with the Lord. There was a quiet internal voice wooing my heart. It's time to venture out from behind the self-protective walls and let go of the past. A tangible tenderness welled up from within. I sensed there would be many tears. Tears of compassion and healing.

It’s a time where the heart of God speaks to my spirit in ways the words of this world cannot express. There is a crushing of all that is unclean in my heart. An invitation to embrace the process, to welcome it, and a longing for him to fill every nook and cranny of my soul. There is an awareness of being deeply changed and transformed while not understanding what he made new. Yet, my spirit knows God has taken over and I simply need to yield to whatever he wants to do. It's a time where things of this world are not important anymore. All that matters is to be transformed into his image. Then I entered a long period of silence. Followed by unexpected bursts of revelation and words of encouragement, which flowed effortlessly.

• It's a time to write.

• It's a time to be broken, to release all that I am and all that I ever was, so I can become all he intends.

• It’s a time to be restored, refreshed, rebuilt, to receive a major software download and upgrade from his Throne.

• It's a time of making room for the new, like cleaning out a closet, a garage or storage area.

• A time of sorting through the old, and discarding those things which are no longer beneficial for the new season ahead.

• It's a time to get rid of the clutter, so I can easily see what is useful.

• It's a time I can only partially understand or comprehend with my natural senses.

• It's a time to be filled up and to be blessed to overflowing.

• It's all a necessary part of the process, as GOD designed.

• A time of preparation.

• A time of transition.

• A time of repositioning, a shift.

• A time of shedding.

• A time of seclusion.

• A time of purpose.

• A time to be pruned.

• A time when I can actually feel the dead branches being cut away.

• A time of wisdom.

• A time of discernment.

• A time of simplicity.

• A time of what seems like inactivity to the natural mind is actually a time of significant activity in my spirit.

• A time of maturing.

• A time of discerning the difference between my perceived truth vs. lies vs. God's truth.

• A no-nonsense time.

• A time where the light is bright, the darkness is black, and there is no gray.

• A time of hunger for holiness.

• A time to stand for what is godly and push back the darkness.

• A time for learning my full godly authority.

• A time of cleansing.

• A time of forgiveness.

• A time of freedom.

• A time of Divine empowerment.

• A time of heightened awareness.

• A time of thankfulness.

• A time of being mentored and mentoring.

• A time of sitting at the Teacher’s feet.

• A time to listen and slow to speak.

• A time of many questions.

• A time of fewer answers than questions.

• A time of no fear, unshakable faith, and increasing trust in God.

• A time of great hope and promise.

• A time to see the promises of God unfold.

• It's time to discard my man-made watch, and synchronize with the heart of God, the rhythm of his heartbeat, as the heartbeat of God is always timely.

God shifted His focus and gave me a glimpse of the upcoming season.

• A time of moving from the waiting room to the birthing room.

• A time where what took months to be formed and grown internally becomes external.

• A time where what had restricted motion shall have unlimited mobility.

• A time of leaving the safety of the shielded place and encountering earthly activity.

• A time for scribing and speaking what God has written on the tablet of my heart.

• A time where the prolonged and vast rumblings in my spirit reverberate in shock waves of His glory.

• A time of awakening.

  • Awaken the creativeness within, which has lain dormant for years.

  • Awaken the artist.

  • Awaken the scribe.

  • Awaken the godly seeds planted from the beginning of time.

  • Awaken the ability to recall and quote the Word of God.

  • Awaken godly revelations.

  • Awaken Divine health.

  • Awaken my eyes to see the God-given destiny he has for each person I encounter.

  • Awaken my mouth to speak only my Heavenly Father’s words.

  • Awaken every part of me to reflect the true holiness of my Creator.

Too much happened in that year to share it all, but it was life-changing and foundational. It was a very challenging and difficult time period where God dismantled what needed to be torn down and discarded. In the midst, nothing felt comfortable. Yet he guided me through uncharted waters. His past faithfulness gave me the courage to accept his invitations for something greater. The results far surpassed anything I could have imagined. Our Heavenly Father is trustworthy.

Here are a few parting thoughts to contemplate.

• Look for the invaluable nuggets during long or uncomfortable seasons.

• What seems like inactivity to the natural mind can actually be a time of significant activity in our spirit.

• Our patience during internal growth sows seed which will sprout external growth.

• God’s waiting room door leads to the birthing room.

• God will help us in every season and is always inviting us to something greater.

(Part 2 of 2)