top of page

Orphan Distortion

God's Kindness Quest Series

My parents, I never see

Guess they don’t care who I’ll turn out to be

 

A lonely child, with no one to share my day

Nobody to encourage me along the way

 

Painfully abandoned, gaping wounds in my heart

My identity, precarious from the start

 

Even God seems uninterested in fathering me

Rage consumes my heart and erupts frequently

​

Feeling neglected, free-falling into a hopeless abyss

Looking upward, I angrily shake my fists

​

Suddenly, my body is engulfed with intense heat

Began to tremble from the top of my head to the soles of my feet

 

A gentle heavenly voice says, fear not

I am burning the anger out of you, and there is a lot

​

I am Father God, here yesterday, today and tomorrow 

Anger is the mask you wear, because you’re drowning in sorrow

 

He tenderly says, you may not know me, but I know you

I notice every little thing you do

 

I know the number of hairs on your head

Even those strands you will shed

 

I formed each unique toe on your feet

I see when you are honest or cheat

​

You are never out of my gaze

I am available to you always

 

I ask, how can you love me

My child, my love is unconditional, as you will see

 

He displays pictures of us together in a slideshow

Instantly, I know he adopted me long ago

​

God’s love replaced an orphan mentality

Turns out, adopting orphans is his speciality

​

My Heavenly Father knows how to get my attention

His love keeps me focused in his direction

 

Truth is, I was never fatherless, nor an orphan

Those were lies and a twisted distortion

Interactive Questions

Jeremiah 33:3 (NIV), "Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know."

  • What emotions, memories, thoughts, convictions, or inspirations bubbled up while reading the poem?

​

  • Father God, what do you want me to know about my answers to the previous question? 

​

​

  • In the poem, anger was a mask the person wore to cover up all the sorrow they felt. What masks are you wearing to cover up emotions you feel?

​

  • Lord, what do you want me to know about those feelings and the masks I listed? 

​

  • Lord, are there any other masks I wear I did not list, which you want to reveal to me now? 

​

  • Lord, what are those masks covering up and how do I take them off forever? 

​

​

  • To what degree do you believe you are God's child?

    • On a scale of one to ten, with ten being the highest score, rate your current level.

1   2   3   4   5   6   7   8   9   10

​

  • If you rated the last question less than ten, describe why you believe you are not fully God's child. 

​

  • Lord, what do you want me to know about being your child? 

​

​

  • To what degree do you live to the fullness of being God's child? 

    • On a scale of one to ten, with ten being the highest score, rate your current level.

1   2   3   4   5   6   7   8   9   10

​

  • Describe ways you are you not living in the fullness of being God's child.

​

  • Lord, are there additional ways I'm not living in the fullness of being your child? 

​

  • Lord, how do I grow in the areas where I'm not living in the fullness of being your child?​

​

  • Describe ways you are fully embracing being God's child.  

​

  • Lord, what is your perspective about my answer to the last question? 

​​

​

  • Father God, families take pictures to commemorate the years together. What special moments (snapshots) would you highlight of you and me? 

​

​

  • Father God, is there anything else you want to share with me at this moment?

​

Prayer

James 5:16 (NLT),  "... The earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power and produces wonderful results.​"

Lord, I give you pent-up emotional pain, loneliness, hopelessness, despair, anger, and rage. Forgive me for hiding behind masks, rather than acknowledging and dealing with my feelings. Teach me how to partner with you to process emotions in godly ways. 

 

I give you the void of growing up fatherless. I forgive my parents for not being there for me during important events in my life. Forgive me for comparing my life to others, for jealousy, and for allowing my parents' absence to steal joy. 

​

Lord, I give you the lies and distortions I believed about being an orphan versus your child. I give you orphan mindsets, fending for myself, and living a solo lifestyle.

 

I receive you as my Father, completely and unconditionally. Teach me how to embrace the fullness of living as your child. Restore a zeal and joy for life. Amen.

​

  • Lord, what did this prayer activate in accordance with James 5:16?

​

  • Tweak the existing prayer as desired or craft a new personalized one.

Scripture

2 Timothy 3:16 (NLT), "All Scripture is inspired by God and is useful to teach us what is true ..."

Psalm 27:10 (NIV)

"Though my father and mother forsake me, the Lord will receive me."

 

Psalm 71:6 (NLT)

“Yes, you have been with me from birth; from my mother’s womb you have cared for me. No wonder I am always praising you!”

​

Psalm 139:17-18 (NLT)

"How precious are your thoughts about me, O God. They cannot be numbered! I can’t even count them; they outnumber the grains of sand! And when I wake up, you are still with me!"

​

  • List meaningful Bible verses which come to mind regarding this poem, the interactive questions, and prayer.

bottom of page